My toes have not even moved before my mind races as I wake up. I am a light-sleeper and a morning person so I know as soon as I open my eyes my day has started.

I normally take about five minutes to visualize my day in my head just so I know what I'm about to get into. It helps since my days vary dramatically.

Today, I woke up with a typical feeling of "What day is it? What do I have to do?", but I also have a feeling of appreciation greater than yesterday. 

This past year (2017) has taught me to follow my natural curiosities in search of answers to the larger questions. Life, careers, family, essentially everything is murky, but I'll always keep moving, keep exploring. 

I cannot join the club of 2017-haters since this was a great year for accomplishing major changes in my life. I helped myself through helping others.

That's a practice I am focused on continuing.

I came across a quote from Bruce Lee that sums up a lot of opinions about our progression as a people and the technology that we use. 

Where some people have a self, most people have a void, because they are too busy in wasting their vital creative energy to project themselves as this or that, dedicating their lives to actualizing a concept of what they should be like rather than actualizing their potentiality as a human being, a sort of “being” vs. having — that is, we do not “have” mind, we are simply mind. We are what we are.
— Bruce Lee

A lot of people waste away, spinning their tires in a permanent residence of despair over how they see themselves and how they assume others see them.

As the saying goes, "You can have anything, but you can't have everything."

Moving forward

I will work to have restful nights knowing that my contributions in work and the community were heard, understood, and beneficial.

I will work to finally write the book I've thought about for years to tell the stories of others.

I will work to be the best provider, care-giver, supporter, cook, handy-woman, and social butterfly for my partner. 

Thank you to everyone who has helped me with kind words, introductions, financially, with training, etc. this past year. Hopefully, this year I will give everything back.