I wish I was a more graphically creative person. I would show the world as I see it through patchworks of Madras textiles and strings attached to knotted up strings that further intertwine themselves in everything.
Patterns are everything. Chuck Palahniuk, the author of the book Fight Club, said, “There are only patterns, patterns on top of patterns, patterns that affect other patterns. Patterns hidden by patterns. Patterns within patterns.
If you watch close, history does nothing but repeat itself.
What we call chaos is just patterns we haven't recognized. What we call random is just patterns we can't decipher. what we can't understand we call nonsense. What we can't read we call gibberish."
It's hard to think that at times we don't know everything that is going on in our lives. Even when I am capable of finally releasing the white-knuckle grasp I have on my activities and ambitions the distance one needs to safely touch down again is rarely achieved. Instead, there is a flying, drifting, lovingly floating moment of reprieve then driven home by crashing down into the everyday reality.
While stuck in the muck of daily to-dos I typically lose sight of all past work or future heartache, hunker down, and work until I can no longer call it productive. Patterns are, however, my worst nightmare. I lay awake at night wondering how each activity will in turn affect my overall plans and goals.
Is everything I am doing now adding up to the greater accomplishments I hope to achieve?
Should I be focusing more on this situation and less on the other extracurricular work I've added?
For people like myself, those always busting with energy, constantly looking for something new to tinker on and then slightly ignore, are almost doomed if not for patterns.
With patterns we can see how are work has progressed us in the past. Patterns can determine whether or not we create outlines of our work and lives.
Of course, patterns need to be shattered at times. They need to break up the monotony and the history of what surrounds us.
And so I intend to find my truth. Outside of all patterns that I have seen in my life and what I know about myself. Because most importantly I see a pattern developing that needs to be changed. Change is hard, but change is necessary.
I have gathered a lot of work on my plate. I may not be seated at the table with a completely empty belly but I do know that what I intend to consume will be the most important.
I really can't wait to share what is in store...