Why I Had To Choose A Self-Inflated Handle

Let me start by saying I completely, wholeheartedly, and knowingly relinquish myself to the self-hatred of saying, “This is my brand. This is who I am.”

I am aware of what I can portray through various social media and writing. My bio is a condensed version of myself that I want to project my future ambitions, not just my past accomplishments. 

There are days when I wake up and would rather commiserate with my girlfriend in bed about how hard adulting is and then there are the days where I feel that I leaped forward more than I could've imagine. 

I try and become aware of what stoics from history and current writers like Ryan Holiday talk about: the Narrative Fallacy. Everyone has a story they tell themselves. "Everyday Explorer" is a cloak that I wear in order to more confidently go forward and rationalize my ramblings and excursions. However, it is just that, a story.  

There is fear in professing and projecting our own values and opinions outwardly, but without such expression there would be no progress.  Yes, it feels great to look back on the work that I have completed and the laurels it has afforded, however, that is not what keeps me motivated and it shouldn’t motivate you either. As George Orwell put it, “ I write it because there is some lie that I want to expose, some fact to which I want to draw attention, and my initial concern is to get a hearing.”

The process is putting in the time and effort. To find an audience that shares similar tendencies and who can contribute just as much to my writing as I can to their reading.

If I graduated college looking for credit despite creating amateur, mediocre but fully passionate work, I can’t remember. Today I realize that searching for credit is searching for your ego. It’s an endless cycle with a balancing act on razor blades. The falls will feel larger and the highs will never be enough.

My goal at the end of this journey is to earn the title "explorer". I have done many things I am proud of, but I have a list that grows everyday of things that I want to do. It will be my journey, researched, carried out, and expanded upon here and through different outlets. It's a way for me to give sanity to the mind and to be labeled an "explorer" also means sharing what I discover.

However, I would have to say that explorers are amateurs. Amateurs not in a specific field, but in the way they approach learning. They dare to go where they (nor anyone else) has been and do not feel adequate. They know that unchartered places are still out there, and that to fill them in means to take risks.

The title "Everyday Explorer" is to suit just that sentiment. I travel and experiment and try to discover something new everyday. So, in fact, I could just as easily associate with the name “Everyday Amateur”.

Become an explorer and be comfortable with being an amateur. It affords you more space to grow, more areas to discover, and a wide space to mess up. Amateurs rarely receive credit, and that’s a good thing.